I am always shocked at how the older I get, the faster time seems to go. I'm always feeling that time crunch. Tomorrow my baby will be 7 months old. What?? Where did my little newborn go? I watch the girls growing up at the speed of light. I blink my eyes and I've missed something.
I have to admit, parenting can sometimes be draining, and frustrating. However, my tired eyes love to watch them with each other. I love the crazy things they say to me.
I also seem to have much parenting guilt. I often wonder if I'm just too selfish to be a decent parent. I love my girls and I want the world for them, but there's also so much that I want to do. I have a terrible time balancing between giving my time to them and to myself. It seems a fine line. I want to be a good role model for them. I want to show them that I can do anything that I set my mind to do and so can they. I knit, take photos, create school lessons on the computer, I go out with friends, I read, I renovate, I cook. I want to create independent children. But sometimes I wonder, while I am doing these things, are they feeling like I'm ignoring/neglecting them? Am I? I read a lot of other blogs. Seriously, where do these people get the time? I feel terribly inadequate. The things mothers do with their children amazes me. First of all, who cleans up after all the playtime? I see the pictures - tidy houses. How does that happen? My house is in a constant state of chaos. 3 kids, 3 hairy pets. Frankly, I'd need a live-in house cleaner (wouldn't that be nice!!).
Okay, I have no idea how I got off on that little tangent. What I wanted to say was - my maternity is flying by. My baby is 7 months old. Work is approaching faster that I could ever have imagined. I'm taking a course at Western over the summer, so I thought I would start planning my year now. My goal is to have a lot of my SMARTboard lessons created so that I won't have to spend endless hours at night after the kids are in bed. So far so good. I really like the creative process involved in making each of the lessons. Week 1 done. :-)
I'll leave you with this:
Breathe in the salty fresh air.